Warriors part 7

Ravenpaw is in even more trouble, because Tigerclaw is trying to frame him for betraying the clan even further, and Tigerclaw has much more respect and prestige.

Ravenpaw reveled to Firepaw that Tigerclaw did murder another clan mate, and that's why Tigerclaw is trying to take Ravenpaw out of the picture.

Today though, I was thinking about how much I enjoy imagining the cats and the forest and all of the action and events that occur.

Then I thought about how I might need to stop my imagination, but with reading that's the hardest time to stop imagination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to emotionally attach myself to the comfort of the pictures and images I've created in my cat book.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear living a life without the comfort of imagination.

What's comforting about imagination?

The fun of the stories, and the experience of being in another world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be sad at the idea of letting go of my alternative realities in my mind, where I'm left to have to face the physical alone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the physical real reality as boring and drab.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the world of the cat warriros as fun and amazing and interesting, as I realize that it's the state of mind I go into in reaction to alternate realities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with amazement at alternate realities, as I realize this is me giving meaning to alternate realities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify the alternate realities that occur during reading as special, because deep down, I'd find any way to justify my alternate realities still on a deep hard to reach level.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify my alternate realities within my mind on a deep hard to reach level, preventing me from easily addressing in self forgiveness and self honesty, because they are justified on such a deep level that I have a lot of resistance and time and effort to apply myself within.

So, this is what I was hoping to accomplish with my extra blog, my dreams and fantasies and I did it.

So, I just keep this blog going, and certainly will get the the bottom of things eventually.

I commit myself to stop, breathe, when and as I see myself jusifying my dreams as fantisies on a deep level, as I realize that it's very hard to adress in self honesty something on such a deep level, and all I can do is stop, breathe, as I normally would, and continue my blog and writting process surrounding this phenomena of dreams and fantisies and all the things that prevent me form acting out what is best for all of life.