Warrior's part 8

Another cat in the clan died.

It seems like Tigerclaw did it to further incriminate Ravenpaw.

Things are just crazy at ThunderClan.

This over bearing sense of dread, and everything falling apart around ThunderClan, I relate to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear everything around me being out to 'get me'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of people being out to destroy me, even if it were true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own paranoia.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear people breaking my trust in them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place my trust outside of myself where my trust is conditional and not real as self trust in relationship to other's.

TigerClaw betrayed the clan, becuase they placed their faith and trust in him, and not themselves.

I commit myself to stop, breathe, when and as I see myself placing my faith and trust in other's, as I in this moment of stopping realize that what I'm placing in other's hands is what I'm not giving to my self as self responsability.