Warrior's Part 3

Firepaw and Grewpaw are invited to the monthly meeting of all 4 clans.

It's the one time all the clans can get together and have discussion and tell stories without danger.

It's an opportunity for diplomacy.

What this chapter made me think about is the way we talk about one another at work.

I always feel justified to say whatever I want no matter who it is directed toward.

I just cannot he bothered.

That's fine, for now nothing gets out of hand, nothing has bitten me yet.

Let me take a moment to go off that.

Nothing has bitten me yet, or in recent times.

My tongue has not been so scornful or sour to come back around with any kind of vengeance since I picked writing self forgiveness back up, and gossip was one of the first things I wrote about.

So there's some progress, but let's not get excited.

I find myself justifying whatever I say, because it is in writing that things are addressed, in self forgiveness, and that's true, but I'm giving up the value that could be gained from practicing tactics of self support, fake it till you make it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define moments within my day-to-day as not possessing opportunities for learning, improvement, and self assertiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to say whatever I want without fear of consequence because I believe that I will have to face whatever happens in writing and self forgiveness regardless, so what I say hardly matters.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so obsessed with self forgiveness and self honesty in writing and speaking, that I ignore living and breathing self honesty and self forgiveness through practical supportive actions and decisions, as learning and changing in real time, in unison with writing and speaking self forgiveness.

It speaks for itself really.

Self forgiveness is what I make of it, so if I act like self forgiveness in writing and speaking it once a day in my blogs/writings, is justification of any other action in my world I'd like to partake, I've already been there and I've drugs and been involved with people where I don't know what will happen in relationship to my life and said events and people right now or anywhere down the line.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I've already said things and done things that will potentially have permanent repercussions for me in my life, and that nothing else matters anymore, where this is showing me how I'm creating the system of reality through my own projections of self responsibility.

Like the worse things get the less self responsibility matters, when it begins to matter even more.

Tomorrow I will try to finish this chapter and see how the clan meeting goes in my book and that will help me open this point up more but for now, I commit myself to stop, breathe, when and as I see myself using my words and tongue willy nilly, as I realize deep down, I know that I must apply myself within all facets of my reality, and my word should not stand as an excuse to be less than what I want to be in life.